BB10: Interview with Jessie - "Wave a few dollars in front of him."

[hepcat]

Leaving before he can be trapped in a sequester house, professional body builder Jessie Godderz had plenty to say about his experience on Big Brother. The resident beefcake likens being on the block for weeks at a time as being as stressful as having a loved one in the hospital. The analogy best makes sense when you realize who Jessie’s loved one is – himself.

How are you doing?

(chuckling) Oh, you know, a little sleep deprived, but other than that we’re good.

You certainly can’t say you played this game by laying low – you were on the block every week except for the time you were HOH. Is there anything you would have done differently?

Thank you. To be honest with you, I didn’t go out of the game because of the way I played it, I went out because of the mass quantity of Americans who voted to get me out. And then, with Dan going back on his word which he supposedly stands by, my game play shouldn’t be on trial. I hope that that’s relevant and obvious to everybody. Is it to you?

I didn’t vote or anything. I don’t really have a feel for what America out there is thinking, so I didn’t know what was going to happen.

I guess you should look at it this way – I just had myself, so friends, family of Memphis, Libra, Keesha and Renny were going to be opposed to me staying because it was pretty obvious who I was going to go for. I just have myself, my friends, family and fans voting for me, so that’s a ratio of four to one. Granted, there might be a few hit-and-miss votes from April, Ollie, Michelle and Jerry, but like you said yourself – you’ll watch it, but you’re not going to vote and spend the money. There’s a handful of Americans who are willing to watch it and pay whatever, but how am I actually portrayed on the show, whether it is actually being arrogant or not? I don’t know if you watched the 24-hour live feeds and if you actually know the person I am, but others may not know that. They only get three hours out of 24/7, and that’s completely out of my hands and the way they see me.

When it came to the vote it was pretty obvious – and it was even more so obvious when Dan was the last person to go up there. Just the sheer fact that he went against everything that he said by saying that $500,000 is not worth going back on everything he believes in, he tries to prove to his kids or his job, his girlfriend, his faith, all these things he came in that he said were worth him not going back on his word, but when you wave a few dollars in front of him…he’s still a teacher, he’s still human. He still has that demon to face and whether he’s going to do it or not is a totally different situation when he gets put in that position, and taking the money is what he chose to do. It just shows the person he is. I don’t have to speak on his behalf; his actions speak for him.

So you’re holding Dan accountable for taking on the America’s Player challenge in the first place?

No, it’s just – I’m not, because anybody…obviously America chose him or asked him first for a reason. He was in a situation where he didn’t feel safe, so that’s why he chose to do it. He now has a for sure opportunity to make money. He wasn’t confident in his position in the game, so he needs to make that money. He didn’t have enough faith in either himself or he didn’t see himself getting that far – whatever the case may be, he was still on the outside of Keesha, Renny and Libra’s alliance and he knew he wasn’t going to make it to the final two anyway. The way he was playing the game, he wasn’t crossing a line, but by doing this America just stuck a big red bullseye on his back and America’s just laughing because now he’s toast too. He didn’t think for himself. He thought $5,000 ahead and that’s the farthest he thought. He’s a teacher, he makes $24,000 a year. Being a teacher is supposedly why he holds the beliefs that he does, but at the same time, $5,000 is like two months of work for him and he earned that in a week. So I’m not saying that I blame him. But it’s just that what he tried to go into the house saying about himself, what he says he wanted to contribute to the house, he apparently is very hypocritical, easily persuaded, and all it takes is $5,000 to change his mind. I stuck up for myself time and time again. I didn’t sway off the path. My personality is obviously the strongest in the house, which is why the attention was all pointed at me when I was trying to point it at the person at hand, the person who should actually be taking account for those actions.

One more question about Dan: does it help or hurt to know that Dan did not have the choice whether to vote for your eviction, since America voted in his place?

He had the choice. He could have not said it and not get the money. It was his choice to get the money to cast the vote because of where he stands in the game. He knew he was so far on the outside, and everybody else was so tight-knit, and then he wants to say he swore on the Bible to Libra, Keesha and Renny first? Okay, then why would you swear on your cross and your Bible to Jerry, and why would you, before all that, swear that whatever the HOH wants reigns supreme? On the first day in the house, you go up and shake everybody’s hand and say, “You and me all the way,” and cover all your bases. Well, Brian did that and he got kicked out of the house. Initially that’s what kept Libra in the game. But that’s not the way I played. My strategy coming in was that if I met people who had goals, people had accomplished stuff, people who were driven, I would have aligned with them.

Were Libra and Keesha right that you would be coming after them next?

Yes. Of course.

Are you excited about Michelle winning?

I knew before Julie even told me Michelle won, there was no doubt in my mind she would. I knew when Michelle was saying the night before, “I’m going to win HOH” all I could hear was Julie saying, “Michelle, you are the new HOH.” I knew that I wasn’t going to be sitting there able to enjoy it with her. But I didn’t want to say that to her because I didn’t want to get inside her head and make her lose focus. But I knew it was coming because of the way Dan was acting. It was very obvious. I played chess against everybody in that house multiple times. Nobody could beat me. Dan did once, granted; I was also eating, and I’m not going to justify it, he did win. But the point of it all is I do think ahead. That’s the whole point of chess, and there’s a reason that game is in there. There’s a reason why I should still be in the game, there’s a reason why I’m not. America saw I was a competitor, and they saw that it wasn’t going to benefit their friend, their family. Again, it’s just something I couldn’t control, and that’s all there is to it.

It seems like everyone is playing an upfront game this season, meaning you know who likes and who dislikes everyone else. So who would you say is playing the sneakiest game at this point?

Because of why, though? Because I made the lines. I tried to make the lines obvious, and I made it obvious since week two. But I would have to say Renny. Renny is playing the sneakiest little sidewinding, not gonna…because Dan’s already done. Maybe Jerry, but Jerry’s doing so many things that upset all the girls. Memphis obviously doesn’t like him. There’s so many different attributes to everyone, so many different variables. You can relate it back to chess. That’s why I shouldn’t be sitting here talking to you, no disrespect. I played it to the best of my abilities and let’s hope I get another opportunity to do so. We’ll see how it goes.

What did you think of Jerry breaking his word in the first week to Brian?

He got an ultimatum, because somebody would have had a free reign on him because you can’t win HOH two weeks in a row. He gave me his word as well.

Brian or Jerry?

Jerry gave me his word after that, after I won HOH and didn’t put him that – or before, because he was trying to make it so he was safe. He said, “Don’t worry Jessie, if I ever win HOH I won’t put you up” – as did Dan. These are the people you’re working with. Everybody swears up and down they’re good to their word. I never once swore on the Bible, I never once swore on my parents, I never once swore on anybody. My word was my word and I didn’t ever go back on it. If people think I lied because Renny did apologize, I have a theory on that if you’d like to hear it.

Of course.

If Renny walks by your car, and you’re standing outside it, and she blasts out your front windshield with a baseball bat, and she starts walking away and you say, “What did you just do?” And she starts saying, “What? What?” Because that’s how she initially responded to the conversation with me in the bathroom. “What did you expect me to do? What?” So I put her in a compromising position where she’s either going to sink or swim, and now you’re sitting there outside your car and she just blasted out your window, and she goes, (in a snotty tone) “Well, I’m sorry.” You’re sitting there thinking, “Oh, I bet you’re sincere there with your apology.” Okay, so Julie wanted to call me out for it, but when there’s no sincerity behind the apology is it really an apology? No. Point being, she apologized, granted, but as far as I’m concerned it went in one ear and out the other for a reason. There was no thinking process behind it. If she had woken up the next morning and said, “Jessie, I thought about it and what I did was inappropriate, and I’m sorry,” I would have said, “Renny, I appreciate that, thank you.” Squashed. End of story. Done. Okay, furthermore, I also went above and beyond the call of duty by not putting her up week 2 when I was HOH. How much more of a good faith step do I need to take, and she’s the one still badmouthing me when if I had won POV she would be the one out the door? If I would have used POV on myself, ten other people swore on the Bible to vote her out.

As a serious body builder, was it possible to keep on top of your training while in the house?

The stress my body was under made it difficult. I have a theory for this, too. If you’re in the hospital, your fate, your religious beliefs, your faith – they’re all in somebody else’s hands. You’re under so much stress you don’t eat, you don’t sleep, you can’t go to the bathroom. That’s how much stress you’re putting on your body. That’s the perfect simile for me and you can’t understand it unless you’ve been a Big Brother contestant and you’re on the block and you know the stress that it puts on your body, your insides, your stomach’s always gargling, you’re not hungry, so you don’t eat. Training for those three weeks was hit and miss. I actually trained when I was HOH because it was the only time I felt safe because I knew I couldn’t vote myself off and I knew I wasn’t going out the door at all. But besides eating, after I did eat I would go right to sleep and everybody tried pointing the finger at me but I was doing that since week one. I stayed consistent. I didn’t wander off the beaten path. Training was tough because if your loved one is in the hospital you don’t eat, you don’t sleep. You’re in such a stressful position, and that’s the same stressful position I was in. That’s what was wearing on my body and that’s why I lost 12 pounds.

Well, at least you can get back into your groove now.

Definitely. Thanks so much.

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[Lucy4588]

Wow, what an idiot. He can barely construct coherent sentences. But thanks so much for that interview, hepcat! I know it couldn't have been easy to sift through his answers lol.

[Mantenna]

Is it obvious to you, Hep? Is it? IS IT OBVIOUS!? IS IT RELEVANT!?!?

You really got this interview up quickly--very nice work and thanks for bringing us Jessie's . . . interesting ideas.

The analogy best makes sense when you realize who Jessie’s loved one is – himself.

[tapper01]

thanks for the interview. Just confirms what an idiot he is and that he makes excuses for everything. HE is one that will NEVER take responsibility for anything he ever does.

You did a great job trying to get him to see reason

[oneTVslave]

Wow, what a moron. Thanks for the interview, hep. As I saw that photo up there, I couldn't help but notice a similarity...

[waywyrd]

The analogy best makes sense when you realize who Jessie’s loved one is – himself.

You had me laughing with that before I even read the interview, hep. I don't know how you made sense of his blathering....he seems to run on forever without really saying anything. What a tool.

I just have myself, my friends, family and fans voting for me, so that’s a ratio of four to one.

I'm so glad he explained the ratio to me, I didn't realize he could vote for himself. I'm sure it all relates to chess!

[MFWalkoff]

Thanks for your diplomatic attempts to introduce reality into his delusions, hep. What a complete ass.

For a little while today, I was wavering on whether or not he was such a bad guy to have around, at least for the entertainment value. But this interview reminds me of everything ugly and self-absorbed I saw in him from the start. Let the chips fall where they may, we can be thankful he's not on the jury and will be out of the picture from now on.

[MsFroggy]

What a completely deluded knucklehead. Can't even string a whole sentence together that makes sense. Sorry you had to listen to his idiocy, Hep!

[VanJagSol]

Wow! Bitter much? He totally forgot that it's a game.

Thanks for taking your time to do that.

[hepcat]

Originally Posted by Mantenna

Is it obvious to you, Hep? Is it? IS IT OBVIOUS!? IS IT RELEVANT!?!?

Was it obvious I was ducking his question?

I was kind of a Jessie fan, but he makes it difficult. I can see how living with him would be one big argument all day long.