i so love this show. like many of the people that posted above me, this episode really got to me... from the beginning with joan's dream of rocky and adam then when she looked on page 14 of the metro section and started crying. i was right there with her. i cried at the funeral, but in the same way joan was crying - as she laughed. and oh... when adam came over in the morning and took out the letter and called her "jane." omg... it was killing me. and the way after joan handed her mom the letter to read out loud, how adam went over to stand right next to joan instead of keeping his distance as if he were strong enough to handle the situation. man, i loved every minute of it. and i LOVED the kiss in the snowing feathers. i wanted them to kiss. i guess the way i saw the whole thing was that joan wouldn't have gotten so upset about losing him as a friend if she didn't have deeper feelings for him. she was crazy about his art and loved that he called her jane. they just made sense to me. and i loved how they filmed the kiss. he reached for her arm, but took his hand away, all unsure. and she had a big wide smile on her face as they got closer. i thought it was perfect.