Oh but you are part of the FORT family believe me. My heart breaks for you as my pain of having to let go of Mona is still fresh. You are doing the most selfless thing by letting Rainey go to the Rainbow Bridge where she will be free once again to be without pain. As much as we love them and as hard as that decision is to make, we must keep in our minds and hearts that if our beloved ones cannot have that quality of life that they had, it can only be best for them. I spent a very sleepless night looking at Mona and petting her , telling her I loved her and that I would see her once again at the Rainbow Bridge where we could be together. You and Mr Lei should be comforted by the fact the you gave Rainey a wonderful 16 1/2 years to grow, play and be a cat. My heart, my thoughts, my prayers, my tears are so with you right now.
Godspeed Rainey and Mona is waiting to greet you, along with so many others.