Today I was thinking about how hard it is to find what you want to do in life. Unless you're born with an innate talent or find a role model to follow, it can be hard to decide on your career goals. Often what we end up doing is very different from what we wanted as a child. If you had a chance to go back and do things over, with the benefit of hindsight, would your goals have changed?
When I was little, I dreamed of being a singer, an artist, or a writer. My sister and I discussed having a ranch or farm so we could raise animals but I think that was more her dream. I love playing with animals or taking pictures of them but wouldn't necessarily want the responsilbility of taking care of a whole bunch of animals. Along the way, I lost my aspiration to become a singer because, although I like to write poetry, the idea of performing in front of an audience scared me to death!
I ended up following the path of least resistance and going into clerical work. I hate it because it's not challenging enough and my mom had a similar career and was never satisfied with it. I didn't want to end up like her. I'm trying to get into computers or graphic design but it's hard to find jobs right now. Plus, at my age, it's hard to start off at entry-level in a new field when there are younger people with much more experience than me vying for the same jobs.
If I could go back and choose a new profession, I would like to have gotten into dance or photography. I ended up really liking those two things later on in life. It's not too late for me to get into photography now but I think it would be more of a side-job or hobby at this point rather than a profession. I might also have tried getting into writing. Perhaps if I had written articles for a school paper or local magazine when I was younger, I might have had a writing career by now.