But every so often I have what I call a Feeding Frenzy dream. I'm eating all the wrong foods one after the other & feeling guilty about it the whole time. Then I wake up & feel a combination of guilt for how I was eating in the dream & relief that it was just a dream. For some reason I feel oddly full & uncomfortable, like I really did eat all that food.
Many years ago I used to smoke & every so often I still have a smoking dream. I'm chain smoking & feeling the same kind of guilt as the food dream.
Maybe both are a deep seated fear of relapsing. Or maybe I really want that junk food & cigarettes.