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    Kick Rocks,

    First off, welcome to the FORT.

    Secondly, I am so sorry about your mom.

    Worldscrashing, I am so sorry to hear about yours too.


    I have found that what helps me the most is talking about my mom. I realize that not everyone is able to do that. But my mom was well liked and had a lot of friends and family and the people that knew her, knew so many funny stories about her, so I find that when I get together with these people we end up laughing a lot and that has helped me quite a bit.

    I find stuff almost everywhere I go that reminds me of both my parents and I do get nostalgic and sometimes sad, but for the most part, most of the memories or things that remind me usually can bring a smile to my face as I remember all the good times. I do admit that I was not that way in the beginning, but now, enough time has passed that I can hear a song, or watch a couple dance (my parents LOVED to dance and danced together often) or see something they would have liked and I tend to smile or laugh to myself about it. I know that they wouldn't have wanted me to be sad. In fact, I had the time to talk to them before they went and we talked about a lot and most of it was that they were ready to go and that I was not to let it affect me, but to know they were happy and would be together again and watching over me and my family.

    And I've had a couple experiences since they've been gone that I do know they are watching over us.

    Anyway, I take my comfort in knowing that they wouldn't want me to mourn them forever, they would have wanted to be remembered with laughter and smiles and I do that whenever possible. I do miss them. I used to talk to my mom daily on the phone and I think I miss that the most.

    I'm just glad I do have a lot of memories and photos that sustain me.

    I wish the same for all of you. You will find that place where the memories bring more smiles than tears one day. Like I said to Lois, you never really get over it, but you do find a way to live with it. Your life is not the same, but you do find a way to make your life a good one, even though they are no longer a part of it. Well actually they are a part of it. I know that I am who I am because of my parents and so is my daughter. So they live on through me and through her and I think they'd like that. They may be gone from this earth physically, but they are never really gone, not so long as we remember them.

    If I may, I'd like to quote part of a eulogy I gave for my friend in March 2006.
    He wasn't my parent, but he was a husband and a parent and his family has told me repeatedly that these words have comforted them in the months that followed his death:

    It's kind of long and I have edited it somewhat as it was longer than the parts I include here. So bear with me for this extremely long post. But I hope that the words I spoke for my dear friend can help you all find comfort. I know they have comforted me not only for my friend, but the others I have loved that have gone before.

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    Several weeks ago, I sent C. a letter and in it quoted a poem by Dylan Thomas about dying. The poem starts:

    Do not go Gentle into that Goodnight
    Old Age should Burn and rave at close of day
    Rage, Rage against the dying of the light.

    Thomas wrote this poem about the struggle to hold on to life and the importance of living lift to its fullest.

    I sent this to C. because he has been my inspiration to do the very same. He struggled mightily to hang on to life and he lived his life every single day to its fullest.

    You see, C. H. lived life large. He lived it with passion and he lived it with grace and he lived it with honor. He had an enthusiasm for life that was unmatched. He was the king of the grand gesture, the gracious host, the passionate Buccaneer’s fan. His appetite for life, for travel, for food, for making people happy will never be forgotten by any here today. Everything he did, he did in a big way. If C. was involved, you knew you were going first class. You knew you were going to eat well, laugh hard and leave satisfied, usually with a bag of leftovers.

    His passion for living was as contagious as his laugh. And the reason for that passion was the great love he had for (his wife), the light of his life, for (his children), his pride and joy. You gave him a reason for living and for working so hard. He lived everyday of his life working to make your lives better. He thought of you in everything he did. He would want you to remember him as the dad that made every holiday special, the husband that was caring and supportive. He would not want you to be sad today, even though all of us are. He would want you to remember all the fun you had and all the special times you shared, and the trips you took. Remember him as the husband and father that loved you before himself and who put you and your lives before his own. And for this you will remember him as a great husband and a great father. For C.H. WAS a great man. While he was my hero, my friend, my fellow cook and foodie, he was first and foremost, your wonderful, devoted husband and your loving, proud father. You three, his family, were his life. He took the very best care of you that any husband or father can. And you can take comfort in knowing that and in keeping alive your memories of him in your hearts.............


    To (his family), He loved you all and he wanted the best for all of you even though sometimes his way of showing it might not have been the easiest. The memories he made for all of you will always be in your hearts. He will live there forever, as long as you are all alive and when you are not, you will be reunited with him. He will be waiting for you, he will be there for us all when its our turn to enter the great goodbye and I’m sure he will be holding a plate of food he wants us to taste. We will always remember how good he made us all feel. And how special it was to be a part of his life.

    So I challenge you all today to this: Live life C. Style. Live it large, live it grand, take a huge bite out of it everyday. Taste it, feel it, live it. Make him a part of you by not wasting any second of your life. I challenge you to make the grand gesture, to do the good deed without seeking the credit, to love your family passionately and your friends with enthusiasm, to eat good food and drink good wine, to honor his memory by working hard, playing harder, and loving like there is no tomorrow.

    And remember this: No one is ever really ever gone as long as someone remembers them, and we will always remember you, C. H. Your love and laughter will warm our memories for the rest of our days, as we look back on our times with you. Thank you for being you; that wonderful husband, father, brother, son-in-law, cousin, friend, companion, confidant and inspiration.

    Our grief over the days and weeks to come and our sadness beyond that pales when we think of the months and years of failing health you endured. And yet you braved it all, showing us courage in the face of the unknown and strength against overwhelming difficulties, all without complaining.

    You not only touched many lives, but strengthened and enriched each one with your kind, benevolent spirit, by giving of your precious time to help others while being granted so few years with us. And yet you will always be with us, for we each will carry a part of you in our hearts; your gentleness and love for life will live on in us.
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    myrosiedog, thanks for your words. What a beautiful and articulate post. I too find that talking about my Mom helps a lot. I'm lucky in that I have a great support system and that makes a huge difference.

    I'd say that the things that remind me of her help to make me feel closer to her since she passed. It's just certain music that's so hard to listen to and I don't know whether that will change. I roared with laughter the other night while watching Annie Hall, because that was one of her favorite movies and it felt good to watch something that brought her such joy. I guess it doesn't hurt that I think it's a witty movie, but I was watching it with her in mind.

    Like I said to Lois, you never really get over it, but you do find a way to live with it. Your life is not the same, but you do find a way to make your life a good one, even though they are no longer a part of it. Well actually they are a part of it. I know that I am who I am because of my parents and so is my daughter. So they live on through me and through her and I think they'd like that. They may be gone from this earth physically, but they are never really gone, not so long as we remember them.
    I had to quote this because this is how I feel too. I don't have kids, but I do teach (college age mostly, with a few non-trads) and I feel like a part of her lives on through my teaching. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't feel compelled to do what I'm doing. I get my love for theatre and the arts from her.

    I definitely feel that keeping her memory alive makes it seem like she is never really gone. I love reading other people's memories and stories because I guess it reinforces what I already know.

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    Kick Rocks, I lost my sister in 1999, and for a few years there were songs that I just couldn't listen to without crying. Now, sometimes I feel sad, and sometimes I actually smile, especially when I remember her rocking out to Hawaii 5-0 It's only been a year for you, so it sounds like you are doing really well. I saw someone in the grocery store today that had my sister's exact same hair style and colour, and it floored me for a moment. There will always be those moments, but the sadness gets less as time passes. Certain dates will always be hard, and I usually try to have some plans made. Hope you and yours have a good holiday season and the memories are good ones.

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    bbnbama, dagwood, and canuckinchile, thanks for your well wishes and the same back at you! Thanks for listening to me, it means a lot. I got worried that I overshared, especially since I am so new, but you guys are great.

    Happy holidays to all of you!

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    Kid Rocks, I'm so sorry to read of your Mom's passing. I think that for the remainder of our lives there will be triggers. You can feel you've turned a corner one day, and the next day you're crying as hard as the day you received the horrible news. My Mom loved her faith, loved it and lived it in a way I could never relate to. But, I still went to church with both my parents a lot, at least once a month. Church is the hardest place for me to be now. I miss her the most when I'm in church. I've yet to make it through a service without tearing up, and I feel it will always be that way. It's the beautiful hymns, and the singing. It cuts me to pieces. For many, church is a source of comfort. For me, church is almost intolerable. Since I live in the Los Angeles Archdioceses of the Catholic Church, overseen by "Cardinal Don Corleone Mahony Phony Bologna", it was already hard to take. Now when I'm in church, I just want to grab my Mom's spirit and get her the hell out of that evil place. But at the same time, I want to rejoice in the fact that she's in heaven, to embrace what my Mom held so dear to her heart. It's a very screwed up, confusing feeling.

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. You have my heartfelt sympathy for your loss. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. And many hugs for you, as well. And welcome to FORT.

    myrosiedog, your eulogy was so beautiful. What a gift you gave your friend's family.

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    My perspective may be a little different as I've had several years between the death of my parents and now.

    But I think that my parents wouldn't have wanted me to mourn them, they'd have rather been remembered with laughter and stories. Of course, its hard not to mourn and I still do occasionally. But I think I've reached the point where there are more smiles than tears now. I still miss them, but now I can talk about them and tell stories about them and make others smile as well when I relate some of the funnier mishaps my family was known for.

    I think the best memorial we can give a lost loved one, especially a parent is to be a living tribute to their memory.

    That was one of the reasons I posted part of the eulogy I wrote for my friend where I encouraged everyone to live life like he had. LIve your life to the fullest every single day and it becomes a living memorial for those that have gone before.

    Many, many hugs to all of you who are experiencing these losses, whether fresh ones or not so recent. The holidays are hard, but also remember what would your mom or dad or friend want you to do and try to do it for their sakes. Best to all of you. We appear to all be in this together. Having support is crucial.
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    WOW!!! So here I am, looking around the FORT and I stumble upon this thread. To all who have posted here, THANK YOU!!! Your words are so inspiring and encouraging.

    My Mom passed away in 1993. She died of breast cancer. I was 19 years old. It's funny--at the time, I thought that I was so grown up, so mature. I look back now and realize that I was just a kid.

    The holidays are the hardest time of year for me (only second to Mother's Day). My brother got my Mom and Dad a camcorder for Christmas in 1992. I can still hear my Mom saying to the camera, "This is Christmas 1992. We will see you next year for Christmas 1993." Unfortunately, she didn't make it through that year.

    I am so sorry to all of you that have lost a parent--please know that I am thinking about you and praying that each day brings you peace, comfort, and joy. I can truly feel the pain that each of you feel. But, even though I want to cry when I see mothers shopping with their daughters, I know that my Mom would want me celebrating just like she always did. I have come to learn that there are some things that happen in life that we don't get over--we simply get through them. One step, one day at a time.


    Thanks for listening. It is nice to be able to talk with people who can relate to how I feel.

    I hope that ya'll have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

    Much love,
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    grneyedgirl, what a beautiful post! You were way to young to lose your Mom. Thank you for sharing your story.

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    Quote Originally Posted by grneyedgirl;2715287;
    I have come to learn that there are some things that happen in life that we don't get over--we simply get through them. One step, one day at a time.
    What a wonderful way to look at it. I think you are absolutely right.

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    Iam very sad to look at this newses.

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