I didn't see a thread for losing one's dad, so I hope it's okay that I posted this here.
I lost my dad on Thursday, and I'm struggling with the fact that I am not feeling sadness. We were never close, in fact, he was an alcoholic absent father. In the last year and a half, he must have sensed his time was about up, as he initiated contact. I was not overly comfortable with it, however, I continued "faking it" for his sake - perhaps I also knew the end was near. I know that he died content that he had "repaired" at least one relationship, and I am glad that he had that peace. However, I am battling with the fact that I am not feeling the sadness that comes with losing one's parent. Is that ever okay? Will I ever feel the sadness? And, if not, is that okay?
Thoughts are welcomed - has anyone been in a similar situation?