I was going to ask if anyone had ever considered that there may be mental illness at play here. Guilt, more times than not, is such a useless and draining emotion. You can add jealousy and envy to my list, too. Ho hum, wake me when it's over.
I remember not having any real peace until my MIL died. Ah yes...such is life. Remember I told you guys that I broke out into the MC Hammer dance?