Miss Kitty and Gabriel have been so kind to let me know that you all have been missing me and wishing me well.
I thank you and I have missed you all greatly. I am feeling much better, but am taking it easy so I don't relapse.
The last couple of weeks have been really hard and I have had a really rough time. But a change in medication and diet and hopefully a couple more days of rest and I hope to be back in the swing.
I have missed this place immensely and I think about all the fun I'm missing.
Thanks again and I plan to be back as soon as I can.
You all are the greatest. Thank you.
ETA: I might as well tell you the rest of it. My neuro thinks now that all the shaking I'm having (think junkie 2 days past his last fix and that is how I look) that it might be Parkinson's. He says the amount of shaking, head swaying, jerking, etc. point to Parkinson's. My dad had it and so I am really scared as I saw how difficult it was for him and how quickly he deteriorated. He was in his late 60's when he got it. I'm only 45.
But I shake so badly that its been hard to type, cook, eat. In fact, we went out to eat about 2 weeks ago and most of my food fell off the fork on the table or floor. Very embarrassing. And most disconcerting as it's very difficult to do anything when I'm shaking like that.
The dr. put me on phenabarbitol which made me really sick. I could be parked in the corner and just allowed to stare and drool while on it. Also it made me as hungry as if I had the munchies. When I wasn't in a trance, I was eating us out of house and home and I don't need that after losing all this weight.
So it's been a rough few weeks dealing with the MS, the shaking and the possibility of parkinson's. That really has me depressed.
But again, I appreciate all my friends here that has wished me well. I am on new medication that is helping somewhat and I've decided to change my diet as I'm also a tad hypoglycemic according to one doctor. I now have a "team" of health care professionals. I hope none of you ever get a team as I feel like a guinea pig for them.
But am trying to eat small amounts of protien and complex carbs every couple hours and it does seem to be helping me feel better. The shakes continue, but for the most part only get bad when its time for my medication again.
This has been a time I would not care to revisit. I have felt helpless because I can't control my hands. If I had a choice, I'd rather it be my feet and legs as I've become very dependent on others due to my hand problems.
Thanks again everyone.