Yesterday I reaffirmed the most depressing, ego deflating, image demolishing, self esteem destroying, humiliating thing a woman can do:........Swimsuit shopping! And I found out what's even worse:........Swimsuit shopping after you're over 60!
I'm a small person. A size 4. Not in vanity sizing, but in regular, any store sizing. Even if clothes run quite small, I'm a 6 at very most. I work out daily, sometimes twice a day & dance 3X a week in addition. But when I tried them on I was darned near in tears. I looked like I had at least 40 lbs of excess lumpy yellow fat stuffed under my skin all over my body. My thighs bulged out, my back bulged over the edge of the suit, I had back fat. Everywhere the suit ended & skin began I bulged over. I tried on one with side cutouts & my entire middle bulged & sagged. My belly bulged & my chest looked flat as a pancake. It was awful. The pasty white skin didn't help either.
In case you're wondering, I wasn't trying on skimpy string bikinis or anything overly revealing like that. I was trying on tankinis & one pieces.
I did reaffirm my already existing knowledge that one pieces aren't for me either. I'm short bodied & they're just too long. They bunch in the middle. Tankinis are the way to go for me. The top covers well over the bottom.
I just booked a vacation for this Summer at a hotel with a beautiful outdoor pool & patio. I need a new suit desperately. I haven't shopped for one in years. I need to do this. Thank God I have a few months to find one.
This is ugly.