One day at a time, MRD. That's all you can do. I'd love to be able to help you through this, but I know there's only so much that anyone can do. You really have done remarkably well, considering the circumstances that you have had to deal with. Getting into a routine again with work and your old/new friends might help, as will getting Rosie and Bogie back. I hope things improve for you, but you're right... sometimes life just sucks. You deserve better sweetie and I know brighter days are ahead of you. You know where I am anytime you want to vent.