MRD, I'm sorry I have no words either. My only hope is that not to far away in the future you will realize that this change was a good one. And maybe you don't feel strong now, but it will make you stronger.
Thank you all for the kind words. Growing up, you know that one day you'll probably end up having to take care of your parents. I guess I never realized that it might happen before my kids even start school.
Gut, I'm having more trouble with the mental changes my father is undergoing than the physical ones. He is also becoming more childish and mean spirited. Is it anger at his disease or his meds bringing out the worst in him? Who knows.
PGM, I'm well aware of the addiction inducing drug you mentionned. In Canada, it's labelled under the name Mirapex. My father's addiction, fortunately will not render him penniless, but it might injure him. He is addicted to fishing (always loved it) and does not want to realize that wadding waist deep in a river on slippery rocks is not a good idea when you can't even sit and not fall down. The doctor says he's impulsive, so he has now phased it out. We are one week in without the pill and my mom is already seeing a difference in him. She says he's less stubborn. Please PM me if you need to talk more.