I have a therapist, I am on meds, but they're still not stopping me from making anyone I have feelings for feel completely uncomfortable around me. It's been that way my whole life. I get attached way too fast. It's been happening for almost 10 years now. It isn't changing. I don't know how I can learn to change. That's why I felt so bad today. Because it happened again.Johnny K - do you have things that have worked in the past at alleviating your depression? Laughter helps a lot of people - watch a funny movie or youtube clips (did you see the one about the New Zealand guys who hooked all of their friend's faucets in his house to flow with beer instead of water?). I don't know much about your history - have you ever seen a doctor about your recurring depression to check for chemical/hormonal imbalances or food issues? On youtube, search for "food hospital depression" - it's an episode where they use diet to cure a woman's depression. I'm sure it doesn't work for everyone with depression, but it might be worth a try. You're such a bright, clever young man - I'm sorry you're suffering with this.