Thanks for all the support, everyone.
I have started taking meds last night (although I've been given them two weeks ago).
I also do have a therapist, but I only see her, like, once every two weeks. I'd want to see her more but she's often fully booked. It works with only appointments, as far as I know.
Friends. There was one specific person who for some reason I decided to unload on whenever I felt bad or had to rant about something (through Facebook). I don't know why I chose them (maybe because I somehow have developed feelings for them...), but obviously, they don't like it and they have had enough of it. They suggested a journal which I did try for a few days before deciding it wasn't helping as much. So right now I'm trying to mend fences with these people, and have even considered leaving Facebook altogether to prevent this kind of stuff from happening as often, at least. Maybe I should just rather stick to email, phone, or real life with certain people.Who is giving up on you. I have felt like you have. Is there a walk in clinic near you? please( please) go to one.
I'm having a hard time finding the right choice of words right now, but I hope it makes sense.
Thanks for all the posts and support everyone. It means a lot.