I thought Pikachu might be hormonal. In my 30s some of my moods I could have attributed to hormones (PMS).
I have found menopause to be kind on my moods. The only thing I really do not like is the hot flashes. One of my friends said you go either the less hormonal direction or the horny toad direction when you experience menopause. I have found that I am the less hormonal direction.
Johnny, let anything that hurt you go. There is zero reason for you to carry its weight. Love yourself. In carrying it, you are hurting yourself. Choose goodness for yourself. Avoid behaviors that you know cause pain. Think good thoughts.