OMLB and all who have dealt with loss via suicide - my heart breaks for you. It's so hard to grieve when you're full of different emotions - anger, guilt, etc. I don't have personal experience with suicide, but after losing my brother when he was 26 (blood clot), I experienced all those typical stages of grief and it's never easy. What I did find helped so much (and still does 14 years later) is people sharing their stories so you don't feel so alone.
Well, after my car accident yesterday, I'm still pretty upset. I'm so thankful nobody was hurt, but I'm still shaking thinking about it. We brought my minivan to the shop today - 2-3 week turnaround and at least $2K in damages. I only (?) have a $500 deductible, but I have a feeling my car insurance will be going up. I keep telling myself I am lucky I wasn't injured and my daughter wasn't in the car.