You are not being selfish in the least Buglover. You are spending every ounce of your energy helping your son fight this horrible disease. That sure doesn't sound selfish to me. We all need to take time for ourselves, even if it's just for a few moments. Teenagers are hard to deal with under the best circumstances, and what Victor is going through would be hard on an adult, I can't imagine how a teen copes. Keep hanging in there and take it one day, one hour or even one minute at a time. And don't feel guilty for thinking about yourself once in awhile. What would your family do without you?