My heart is heavy this morning, for 2 reasons.
1. My 4 month old son was born with an extra thumb. I have been assured by numerous doctors, as well as hours spent researching it, that it is hereditary and there is nothing I did/didn't do while I was pregnant that caused it. He has to have surgery the first of October to remove it. We're talking putting him to sleep, the whole nine yards. This on a 5 month old baby!! But, this is the optimal time to do it because he has just recently discovered his hands and has chosen the extra one as his "binkie". The orthopaedic doctor says he wants to remove it before he starts really using his hands, so he won't have to re-learn how to pick things up and such if we waited. After finally releasing myself of the blame, I just found out at a doctor's appointment Friday that he has a growth on the other hand, right under the thumb that may be the same thing. So, there is a possibility that he will have to have both hands operated on, and that tears me up inside. My friends and family try to soothe me by saying things like "it could have been worse" and "at least it's not something major, like his heart", or my favorite "it's no big deal"........IT IS A BIG DEAL!!! This is my baby, and he has to be cut on!!! Anyone out there had any similar experiences they can share, because I'm about ready to call off the whole surgery. I mean, it's just cosmetic....does he REALLY have to go through all that?
2. My husband's uncle died very unexpectedly on Friday. He was in excellent health (to our knowledge) and went out to run some errands. His friend found him slumped over in his car, dead. No signs of wounds, foul play, etc. We are a VERY close family, and I don't deal with anyone's death very well AT ALL. He never got to meet my son, his first great-nephew. His mother is 83 (and runs circles around you and me) and has already lost 2 husbands and 2 sons. We're not sure if she will be able to handle this very well. The worst part? This all happened in NY and we are in NC. My husband and I cannot afford to fly the 3 of us up there, not to mention there is no bereavement pay for uncles (explain THAT one, please). We cannot even go up to pay our last respects.
Thanks for letting me get some of this off my chest. For some reason, sometimes it's easier to talk to strangers than it is your own family. Please keep all of us in your thoughts and prayers.