...and digging for sympathy. is that ok?
let me tell you the newest of my drama.
1. my precious dog is dying (you knew this)
2. i've got inner ear problems in my right ear. my ears won't stop popping. and often they pop in such a way that it's as if air is swishing from my throat to my ear and my voice sounds like it's coming from the middle of my head and makes me feel as if i talk funny... so i won't talk at all. the only way i can stop it from popping is to basically lower my head and put it between my knees. i can't really do anything that exerts any sort of effort (walk briskly, lift weights, exercise) unless i want to keep them permanently popped for the duration and for a period of time afterwards.
3. and here's the latest and worst - about 5 days ago, my lip started twitching...like a tiny little spasm every now and again. Well, it's gotten worse. now the whole left side of my face from my chin to above my left eyebrow is in a constant state of spasm. nice, huh? i just got back from the doctor and turns out he believes it's bell's palsy... (i have a doc's appt with a neurologist in the morning to confirm) ...which is good and bad. good that it's not permanent. bad because as long as my dog is at death's door, i'm going to remain stressed. the spasming kept me up all night last night and and now it's been spasming for such an extended period that my face feels like it's falling asleep on the left. kind of like it's coming out of the numbness you feel after going to the dentist and having a cavity filled.
damn, man. i'm tired. i just want all of it to stop. i am totally depressed. no sleep and depression and jiggy face and whooshy ear and dying dog = a very unhappy sherri.
granted, the good doc did give me a supply of xanax.
okay, i'm SO going to be better now that i've had an opportunity to rant about it. xanax popped! WHINING OVER!