Oh, I just thought it was the N word.I don't think that people are viewing Paula as racist because of a word she's admitted to using. I think it's more because of her behavior - the description of the wedding she wanted to throw, etc. Her behavior, along with using the word, show that she lacks a sensitivity towards race issues. That's made worse by the fact that when she talked about it, she seemed to be saying it matter of factly, without any indication of regret. Now, she was talking about it in a court case, which may be the reason for a lack of emotion. But it's the big picture that is an issue - not merely a word.