Hey Everybody!

Steve surprised me Tuesday and took me to the Fair in Winston-Salem. You guys should know how much I love riding those rides, and it's just something about going to the fair with that "Special Person" in your life that makes it very memorable and exciting!

We arrived around 5:00 pm and we got into the fair free of charge. Steve's a DJ & the station that he works for has a "Booth" at the fair. We walked, we talked, we ate, rode all the great rides... even the scariest ones... lol - I talk a big story but, it's more like "Chicken, Party of One"... yep, my table is ready! He got the biggest bang outta me on the Pirate Ship... naturally he wanted to sit in the back, so that when the ship was rocking very high, we were staring straight down... I though I was gonna fall out & go splat on the pavement. I held on for dear life, with my eyes squeezed shut & did a lot of praying lol. All the while, Steve was laughing his butt off at me.

Half way through the fair, Steve won me the cutest stuffed Monkey you've ever seen! A co-worker at the radio booth called the Monkey Finny (named after Steve) and it stuck! I knew that was the perfect name. After 5 hours of carnival bliss, it was very dark and fireworks were going off all around us. They were beautiful and we were parked at the ultimate spot for viewing! Now the sad part......

We were exhausted and Steve had to be at the station at 4:30 am, so 10:00 pm had become a late evening out. Apparently, while at the car, as we watched the ending of the fireworks, my monkey Finny became missing. However, I did not realize he was missing until the next morning. I could have sworn I took him in the house. I can't understand why it took me until morning to know he was no where to be found. I looked for over an hour, before I had to leave, go home & get ready to go to work on Wednesday morning. I was so distraught over that little monkey... He was so special to me, because it was from Steve. It was as special to me as if it were a diamond or a bar of gold. I've been in tears for 2 days over that Monkey!

Now for the good news... I had Steve looking high & low... he was to call me if he found Finny. This afternoon he called me. When I asked about the monkey, he told me that he must have fell out of my arms walking to the car or fell out of the car during the fireworks. I started bawlin' again. He told me he was sorry that he didn't call me earlier... he was at the fair and he won me another monkey just like Finny and won me a cute little Doggie too! WOW!!!! I'm floored! I'm surprised beyond belief, speechless! I'm still in shock that he went to those lengths to get me another monkey. Steve's soooo funny... He told me if I couldn't keep up with my toys that he wasn't gonna get me anymore. LMAO The man just amazes me!

Now, how's your week been? Mine's been drama filled, yet with a VERY happy ending!!

BoBoFan

Today I sit looking at my mother's picture. Her 67th birthday is coming up on the 8th of this month. It's been 8 years since she passed away but it's still very fresh in my mind. I go to bed at night and as I fall asleep I hear her tell me goodnight and I cry. Every morning I wake up with my eyes stuck together from crying in my sleep. I dream of her coming to me and feel elated. I wake up and feel deflated! She's always being ripped from me as I wake up. I almost want to go back to sleep forever so I can talk with her and hold her hand.
I cannot express how much I miss her. I still pick up the phone to call her and remember she's not there. Whenever something major is happening in my life, I reach for her to guide me through it and she's not there. There's a lot of emptiness in my heart without her.
Every year I begin to fear my own mortality more and more. I wonder how my son will continue on if I am not there for him. I raise him with the idea that he will be able to do things for himself in case something should happen to me but it's very lonely. Who will give him unconditional love and guidance when I'm gone. These thoughts run through my head all the time.
I miss my mother. I miss her smell, her hair, her hugs, her voice. I especially miss her smile.

Mommy, I wish you could come home but I know someday I'll see you again. Someday this hurt will be less, someday I'll smile a little bit more.

buglover

Omigod, I haven't been here for awhile. Ho hum again, geez. I wanted to watch the Jo & Slade thing, Date 'n Sex, or whatever, ohhhh... Date my Ex. Oh yeah. Turned out it was so boring, I just come here a couple times a year to see what's been said. Damn, gimmee something interesting will ya Bravo?:hiya

Prism

It's all so boring now, even the ones I loved to hate. There's no interest, no challenge with all this pseudo-reality stuff. Where to go from here, where to go.... bore, boring, bored. Sleep.

Prism

From another site:

So it appears to be time for another journal! First of all I want to thank everyone that left me comments on my last one about my grandfather's passing. I am sorry for not responding to everyone separately but please know that your thoughts and prayers and support for me and my family were appreciated more than I can express. Love you all and appreciate LN so much!

Like my Old Journal, I have to apologize again for not commenting on everyone's journals as much lately but please know that I do read them! Or at least try to! [smiley7]

Well my "old journal" was also an update on what's been going on with me so this one will be as well. Since the last one was in June and we are now August (man, does time fly!!), I had a lot going on recently. There was a birthday happy hour,then a birthday evening, then painting during a vacation, building new furniture, then my grandfather's funeral. All in a couple of months.

In addition to all that, I've been continuing my journey to my weight loss goal. As the experts say my "not on a diet" but lifestyle change. Things have been going pretty well. Not there yet but have lost a total of 33 lbs in 18 weeks. Wish it was more but I seem to have plateaued and the loss has slowed down in the last few weeks. But I will keep on keeping on since I'm not there yet!

Now, I was worried to post anything because I didn't really want to "toot my own horn", but also this feels like I am accountable in a way with "writing it out". Sort of makes it real so to speak. I think I am also ready to show my "before" and "after" even though the after is just current and hopefully there will be another "after" when I get to my goal!!!

So here goes:
Click on the link to see it.
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The first picture was from April 4th (LN Tourney) and although, very embarrassing, it's a good reminder of where I don't want to be again! The after is from the 1st of August. Again, hopefully there will be another after but this is me so far. Been a long and at times, hard, road but so worth it. I go back for a checkup this month on bloodwork that was taken in April and I'm hoping there will be marked improvement with those tests. I feel great having accomplished as much as I have, and feel confident, knowing that, this time, it's for good.

Thanks for reading Nation! Have a great week and yes, it's almost Football and Tailgating time!!!!! Take care!:)

PGM35